En venneløs tilværelse er ganske vanlig. Mange opplever det, selv uten å være bevisst det. Jeg tror det kan sammenlignes med å trene. Si at du trener styrke aktivt i et år, annenhver dag, strengt regime, og så plutselig får du ikke trent på en uke. Trener du fortsatt da? Ja. Gitt at du har…

Jeg har observert en tendens hos mange mennesker, kanskje alle, til å betrakte andre enten som brønner eller stiger. Dette gjelder spesielt i situasjoner hvor en tvinges på hverandre i en periode, enten det gjelder skole, jobb, eller i andre anledninger. Enkelte er som brønner. De er lave mot bakken, det virker som om alt…

I feel as though Valour best summarizes the period I’m in at the moment. It feels like I’m on a battlefield in a prolonged state of attritional warfare. The chain of command has broken down, no new orders coming in over the radio, and the snow blankets the ground, covering up the dead and dying.…

Drained, empty, nothing left. Running on fumes hoping it’ll catch a spark and initiate a chain reaction, catalyzing some reaction, or forming a structure. I need one. Badly. No separation between work and life outside, it all leads back to work. And I feel so unmotivated because praise rarely works unless it’s rational. I turn…

It’s a strange feeling to see 2025 on the calendar, and it gets even stranger when you realize that it’s actually true. We’re in 2025. Every year since 2018 has felt like a semi lucid dreamscape, where who I am as a person is continuously changing, all the while unable to be steadfast or grounded…

Spending time awake while the world sleeps brings a profound sense of disconnection that’s difficult to fully grasp, but also one that’s utterly useless to try to find a meaning to. It doesn’t really matter whether I’m awake or asleep, if it’s in the middle of the day or way past 3 am. It’s just…